By: Deneen Young (BGR! Philadephia)
I love God because he listened to me, listened as I begged for mercy. He listened so intently as I laid out my case before him. Death stared me in the face, hell was hard on my heels. Up against it, I didn't know which way to turn; then I called out to god for help: "Please, god!" I cried out. "Save my life!" god is gracious” it is he who makes things right, our most compassionate God. http://bible.us/Ps116.1.MSG
This morning what a morning, I woke-up not really myself but some of the "old" self from the past. Yes, I have come to realize and accept that Iwill always have some residue of my past as a reminder to keep trusting God and to keep pressing and pushing pass the past. But it was different this morning I felt that feeling of I really can't do this I really don't want to do this--why do I have this determination in me but wanna hold back too.Then it hit me because you cried out to me so many times (that small voice said) that is why I heard your cry and
honored your prayer and the desire of your heart. Why not get up and do what is in you?WOW I began to raise out of the bed and did my normal reading of today's scripture but didn't really read it (if you know what I mean). I heard the rain and thought well maybe I can stay in bed since it is raining then that voice said what the heck are you doing--you know you run in all kinds of elements except thunder and lighting so move. As I got in my car packed up a bag to come to work after my run--something in me felt bad because I didn't read my devotion
but I turned on 105.3 listening to Pastor Donnie and started reflecting on so much and headed to Kelly Drive. Not only did he honor my desire and saved my life but He allowed me to run this morning a 9.23 pace and not even know that was what I was running (just looked at my Nike+ app and it actually was 9.17 pace) plus I got to do the ultimate and finish a 5K (3 miles) in 28 minutes boy oh boy--it wasn't in a race but this race this journey is all mine and that is what makes it all the better.
As I got to work I sat down and finally really read today's scripture above and thought about that very moment a year ago I was in my shower and I literally cried out "Please God--Save my LIFE"! Yes, I cried out those very words and kept crying out REALLY LOUD to the point that my children were home came in and asked if I was alright and I remember not answering and they closed the door and sat on the floor outside the bathroom waiting for me to be finished. So when I share my story or share that it is all because of Him my prayer is that someone finally gets it. They get that the tool, the work, everything is only because of Him and Psalms 116.1--He listened so intently as I laid out my case before him--there were nights I literally laid prostrate before Him on my living room floor praying pounding on the floor that I had to get out of this way of eating and killing me but wanting to live more and on purpose for Him. There were times I really felt like I was living in hell I felt so stuffed in so many ways--I really didn't know which wayto turn but only to Him--My God when you allow the residue to be just that "residue" and not hold on to it what a mighty God we serve that my reflection has me in another place on my journey and the movement that occurred for me to get there was awesome! Know this what ever movement you need in your life to press pass the past know it claim it and trust God!!! WOW!